Why do I want to psychedelics so bad?

By drugs I specifically mean psychedelics. Nothing else like Cocaine, Heroin and meth. I want to try LSD, Salvia, LSA, Shrooms, and other psychedelics. I come from a Native American side of family but I am only about half. Sometimes I think that is where my interest comes from. I am not a junkie and would not want to do it all the time or even commonly. But I just want to explore the mind, other worlds, I want to see stuff that is not there and I want a euphoric lift in emotion. Cant explain really. I have dreams about it sometimes and the experiences are so cool in dreams. I research every thing I can about psychedelics. Of course though I come from a family who have experienced drug use in the past( Stuff I would not touch) and they would think that I am heading down the wrong path in life if I ever tried what I wanted to. Please don't suggest that I should not take certain things, that is not why I am here. I am well aware of the consequences of anything I try. And like any responsible drug taker (lol) you should read everything you can about it before you try it. That's what I do. I just need to know why I have an interest in psychedelics .